Trying to be under the radar

For the most part, I think I am getting along with the bosses. One way I know is I keep getting more work, which I believe for at least one of them is an acknowledgment that I'm not screwing up what I've been doing. The other way I know is one boss crashed a weekly conference call I have with my coworkers and told them I'm doing a good job. Which - thanks and all, but dude, now I might have to deal with the "teacher's pet" syndrome. And I'm just fumbling through everything like my coworkers are, I'm just the one making the requests so it's easier to measure when my coworkers fail vs. when I fail. And I'm the loser with no family or social life to speak of, so I can spend every waking moment working or thinking of work. Don't keep enabling my bad behavior, boss!

I was also a loser when I was a kid, reading books when my siblings were watching TV or having fun, and I also got pointed out and praised which made me 莫名其妙. I'm just reading cause I don't have enough dexterity to play whatever games the older kids were playing! or cause they didn't invite me! Then the praise made them doubly sure to never invite me. So there's some personal overreaction here but I'm really wishing I could ditch the spotlight part of the job cause everything else is pretty fun. I am getting that sinking feeling again of not getting enough done, and the boss told me "don't send me any more emails complaining about job priorities" as he fixed things last time and I think I only get to play that card once a fiscal quarter... or fiscal year... T_T

Source: Discover Education